whips

So the due date kinda for the com design homework got pushed up from monday to friday. I should work on that.

On the other hand, I'm not happy with it and would probably be happier to NOT have it in that show at all, so maybe it'll be best to NOT turn in on time.

There is so much rage in my heart right now.

Regardless, I'm feeling what I pray is not sickness coming on and really really not up to homework and I've exhausted all my bookmarks. YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS.

These wips are probably the nicest looking things to ever grace this blog. :/

I've been doing a painter-y thing in photoshop for that com design project, so I figured I'd take another stab at that digital painting thing for myself. It's immediately easier in photoshop because I know photoshop, even though I know that it'd all look nicer in corel.

The thing about taking a stab at that digital painting thing is that I always lose interest/dislike the work/forget about it and they never get finished. IDK if that's where Killian is headed but it seems likely.

I was looking around and there really isn't enough of my Killian on the internets. I really do love working with him, even if he is totally a guilty pleasure character. His playlist is so powerful. I really can't do anything else when I listen to it but draw/write him.

He looks too clean.

Doodling around with Sovereign City in mind, I realize that I SUCK at this traditional super hero thing.

Honestly, I really just suck at drawing people wearing anything but a hoodie and jeans. Sigh.

He doesn't have a superhero or a regular name yet, and he looks too young here but I like to believe I have him down elsewhere. I like that the ears on his mask and his ears are the same. c:

HAVE TO STOP PUTTING UP NAMELESS CHARACTERS HERE I HAVE NOTHING TO TAG THEM AS. DERRRP.

This won't ever be finished and DA'd because I don't like it enough. I think my standards for DA have either greatly increased, or I just don't bother making nice things anymore. Regardless, this blog is certainly to blame.

I guess I can fill out that housing contract. That'll take up some time. Maybe even the hour I need that could be well spent on homework. c:

I kill them. All of them.

So when it comes to me and my relationship with my characters, there are two things that I should probably share.
One, I recycle them LIKE CRAZY. AT LEAST fifty percent of my children exist in more than one universe. Usually as side characters, you know, or even just background people who barely exist, but sometimes they can play bigger roles. Sean, for example, is a main character in his own universe and a big ole antihero in another. Oh, and they almost always travel in groups... Seth and Mikey, Jeremy and Tycho, etc. This is just what I do.
And two, I LOVE TO KILL THEM. And this... lead me to evalutation. Of just how likely my kids are to get dead in a new universe. And here it is.



First up, group one. The immortals.

These guys are completely denied the right to die. They always come in pairs, the second being much more likely to die than them. They always live in order for me to make them unhappy.

First, Jeremy, who... actually really IS immortal, and whose immortality I use to break his heart over and over again. :>

Next is Seth. Okay, okay, so I actually do have Seth's death planned... but it doesn't occur until AFTER EVERYBODY HE CARES ABOUT DIES. Seriously, it's like the pinky swear thing. Befriending this boy WILL GET YOU DEAD. <3

Ishmael. Ishmael kills and then hates himself for it. Ishmael's beloved dies. Ishmael's friends betray him. And Mandi makes him live through and beyond the whole thing. >3 (actually, this afternoon I started to ACTUALLY FEEL KIND OF BAD FOR THE POOR KID. I might let him suicide in the end. Considering it.)

And Jim. Weeeell... Jim's just a tool who I refuse to kill until he learns to stand on his own two feet, dammit.

And now group two... the unlikelys.

Well, these guys I keep alive usually but not always, and generally for different reasons than the immortals, who I just love to make miserable. A lot of my characters fit into this category, but I don't think I should mention EVERYONE ._.

Tee... well, to an extent I keep him alive to feel guilty about being an asshole. But also I let him live because, generally, he changes and sort of starts over in a less assholey life.

Claudio can play two roles. The strong-hearted victim who keeps on truckin', or the martyr. Usually I like the former, though, because it makes all the adults he interacts with feel like losers. >3

Pippin is a rare case among my characters. Pippin I keep alive because I like her too much to rid the world of her adorable silliness. That's all. <33

And Killian, even though logically he should be long dead, I keep alive because he's occasionally suicidal, and his reasons are dumb, therefore I won't let him do it right. On the other hand, when he appears in universes besides his own he often plays a sort of filler (a guy who gets eaten by zombies... a kid for when my other gays need something to fuck), and I'm much more willing to kill him then.

Now, we move on to the much more likelies.

These guys? Yeaahhh, I'll probably kill them, unless I can come up with a really really good reason not to. There are many many more in this category as well, but I only listed a few. You may notice, most of them have a friend up in the immortals...

Sean. Because in the end, he always finds himself in a situation where he's completely doomed, at which point he says "NO ONE GETS TO KILL ME BUT ME" and kills himself. :/ Also I have some gorgeous death scenes planned for him in which he gets shot in the head, usually. <33

Siiiinclaire. Is too opinionated and headstrong to ever CHANGE, and therefore must DIE. Usually killed by friends or people they trusted.

Tycho, one of my rare "good people", which will generally get them killed. Leaving behind a very unhappy immortal boyfriend.

And Constantine, who generally learns to trust or to chill or to hate less just hours before his death. Which is frusterating and sad... but also kind of cool because he dies rather happier than he lived. His Shaun I didn't draw, but he'd be up with the likelies.

And, finally...

We have Mikey, who dies in every single universe I put him in. And he's not just in two or three stories. Mikey happens to hold a place in my heart as absolute favorite, and so he's reincarnated EVERYWHERE. Let's see... he's eaten by zombies, hit by a truck, murdered a few times, oh zombie infected and thus shot in the head... Throughout his entire main story, he's only alive in flashbacks.

No, really. He is my favorite.

I don't get it either.

Is this sadism?

I'm not sure. But GAWD do I enjoy it.

a text conversation

So I drew this. Then I took a picture on my phone and texted it to lindsay, at which point we exchanged a conversation through text messaging over who would win the battle that would follow this scene - Sean or Killian's ex-gangster buddy Harper. I was amused, I copied it down, and here it is.


SEAN SHOULD NOT RAPE KILLIAN! THIS IS BAD. SOMEONE WILL DIE.

SOMEONE INDEED, BUT WHO?

IM NOT SURE!

EITHER WAY KILLIAN IS LEFT IN QUITE THE UNCOMFORTABLE SITUATION

How would he react? I mean, he doesn't want to be sodimized, but he also doesn't want anyone murdered.

Killian is very good at being understanding of those who do him wrong. That said, he prolly would be rather unhappy with sean

And while he doesn't want sean dead, I'm sure harper is higher on his "plz don't die, srsly" list

Plus, harper probably wouldn't look for kill's permission before murdering sean

Uh, no. No. however he maay feel a twinge of guilt for killian after the fact

Kill wouldn't be too heartbroken if sean's mangled corpse were found in a dumpster weeks later.

Good to know.. What about days later? hours? moments?

However, seand prolly just kill killian right there. Also in a battle to the death, seans got a jim and all harper has is a killian

No way, sean would be a challenge, a possibly not won challenge, but jim would be dead before harper even found out whether or not killian was okay. the man can't even dodge knives in his sleep. puh-leeze.

Ooh, thatd piss sean off. only HE can stab jim while hes asleep!

Well it looks like we have a pretty intense battle here. Harper has many years of rage, plus the h-is-so-angry-i-cant-even-think-of-a-metaphor rage of someone even thinking about possibly touching killian even WITH consent.

Which there was not. and sean has... an extra decade of experience killing people and irritation at losing his jim

Yeah man. Dude this sucks. I'm have a lot of faith in seans assassin abilities, and harper would probably lose, but he would pu up a hell of a fight. Sean would be pretty bloody. And jim-less.

Not really worth the killian rape, in the end. hes gotta plan his sexual offenses more carefully

O sean.